So I’ve shared lyrics way back when I started blogging. I love song writing, music is my heart and it keeps me going daily through the best and worst times. I’ve tried to pick up my guitar lately, I’ve played to the point of blisters on my fingers. I absolutely hate how I sound lately, I have a really low voice. I’d make a great backing singer, bass tenor or something similar. I just can’t find my own singing voice for my own songs, or my own style.
I had found it, but once I’ve returned to it I just hate hearing myself. I want to post my own music online and just have an outlet like that but I can’t motivate myself to it. I’m in such a negative place and my voice just feels awful, shaky, and I’m only an average guitarist at very best.
It’s really frustrating, I wish I cared less. I’d be lying if I said that though. I just want a beautiful girl that sings and plays guitar that could bounce off me and sound perfect. There are so many songs that I want to play with someone special like that, I’m a dreamer eh.
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