How I cheer myself up

I slept in today, not feeling too hot I guess. Couldn’t sleep at all, which is a recurring trend for me. I was feeling a bit down, so I picked up my guitar and sang. Granted the traffic outside is annoying at this sort of time from outside and my voice is a bit shaky today, but I thought why not share. Hopefully it’ll brighten up a few more people’s day, I can be hopeful!

I love this song, and figured sharing it would cheer up a special someone too. I hope you’re all having a good Monday. I hope this helps too, it cheered me up a little on a desire-less Monday.

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My first recording

So after a little kick up the arse in terms on motivation I decided to record a really raw, scrappy version of a song that I love – Christmas TV by Slow Club The sound quality is crappy, but I like that I just recorded one take and posted it. No over thinking or picking my missed notes or dodgy transitions, just as it was. I like it that way. The quality is awful, and I know it’s far from flawless. Sorry not sorry.

I’d absolutely love any and all feedback, even if you’re just saying that it’s nowhere near as good as the original and that I should never do anything else. I really don’t care, I’m happy with it and I’m happy to share it. I love this song so I decided to pick up my guitar and just blast this out, no excuses.

Please give me some feedback. If you have a listen just drop me a comment and let me know what you thought and what you think I can work on. If you want to hear a song or any of my original stuff I’m sure that you can motivate me a lot towards recording more tracks. Whether they’re covers or original tracks.

Daily frustrations

I’ve had three hopes and intentions for this week.

The first being to send a letter to Emily, but as much as I’ve thrown away scraps of paper with my scruffy handwriting..I just can’t find the right words to sum up anything that I want to say. I don’t know.

The second was to get a response (hopefully positive) for the job that I applied for previously and really want. Heard nothing, haven’t had a response to my email. When I called them late last week I was told that interviews would be done early this week and that they’d be in touch. Really shitty not to at least tell me I haven’t got the job, huh.

Last of all was the promise I made to record myself playing a song. I’ve recorded sound a little today and just hate how I sound. Completely. I haven’t got a decent microphone and my inbuilt laptop mic doesn’t pick up my voice clearly at certain tones. That and I just hate the sound of my own voice. I couldn’t find any video recording software on my laptop that I thought I would have, I have video with no audio or vice versa. A little annoying and I’m quite tired of making excuses. But yeah.

This week’s going well, I’m just tired of little everyday things chipping away at me and still feel powerless to make a positive impact on my own life right now. Let alone anyone else’s. It’s probably better than I’m single right now and try to pick up my own pieces, if I can manage that.

A Promise

I promise that within a week I’ll record (I’d imagine a pretty poor quality all round) cover of this song. I love it, it means a lot to me and I just want to sing it.

My first memories were my last summer, I was really down. I was in a suit in the pouring down rain and my day had only just started, nobody had let me into their house or even given me the time of day in my first three hours. I was a door to door salesman last summer incase I forgot to mention that.

Anyway, to cheer myself up I’d be strolling along so cheery, and that one day (I didn’t make a single sale all day until the last 20 minutes of roughly a 10 hour day) I just sang away. I sang this song a lot, amongst others. It really kept me going.

Fast forward and this is a song that Emily (I previously mentioned her plenty, you’re probably bored of me talking like this aren’t you) actually recorded this song specially for me. I love her version, she has a beautiful voice.

You know, I really can’t help..

I can’t sing

So I’ve shared lyrics way back when I started blogging. I love song writing, music is my heart and it keeps me going daily through the best and worst times. I’ve tried to pick up my guitar lately, I’ve played to the point of blisters on my fingers. I absolutely hate how I sound lately, I have a really low voice. I’d make a great backing singer, bass tenor or something similar. I just can’t find my own singing voice for my own songs, or my own style.

I had found it, but once I’ve returned to it I just hate hearing myself. I want to post my own music online and just have an outlet like that but I can’t motivate myself to it. I’m in such a negative place and my voice just feels awful, shaky, and I’m only an average guitarist at very best.

It’s really frustrating, I wish I cared less. I’d be lying if I said that though. I just want a beautiful girl that sings and plays guitar that could bounce off me and sound perfect. There are so many songs that I want to play with someone special like that, I’m a dreamer eh.

I’m happy I met you – Sharing my song lyrics

This is a difficult one for me to share, I have mixed feelings because I wrote this song at a time when I’d just met someone and felt so loved. Sadly things didn’t turn out as I had originally hoped, I don’t have bitter feelings, more just disappointment. I guess it’s a relationship I just put down as an experience along my journey.

I’ve never been much of a poet,
But the words are there ‘cos of you,
I’ve never really known how to word it,
But here it goes just for you

All I can do is say sorry,
It’s probably just me that frets,
We don’t really have that story,
Of how across the room our eyes met

Regardless I’m so lucky,
Lucky that somehow you see,
I’m lucky that somehow you see,
Only the best of me

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodooo doodoo doo,
I’m happy i met you

I’d say that i’d catch a grenade for you but,
what kind of psycho bitch needs that?
Nothing you do will scare me off,
Pretty sure that you’ve tried that

Please just stay right next to me,
It’s crude but you’re my crack,
I just need you next to me,
Ain’t no looking back

What i’m saying is I’m so lucky,
Lucky that somehow you see,
I’m lucky that somehow you see,
Only the best of me

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodoo doodoo doo
I’m happy i met you

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodoo doodoo doo
I’m happy i met you

I’m aware it’s pretty primitive, but it has a lot of meaning to me. It was the first song that I’ve written for somebody and it felt amazing to share it with her for the first time.

Who knows, eventually I might record some of my tracks and share them here. For now this is my first little step at sharing my music. You don’t get a complete feel for my songs through the lyrics alone, but for such a personal song..I guess you could say it’s a little insight into my life. In this case, a little insight into my past.