I can’t sing

So I’ve shared lyrics way back when I started blogging. I love song writing, music is my heart and it keeps me going daily through the best and worst times. I’ve tried to pick up my guitar lately, I’ve played to the point of blisters on my fingers. I absolutely hate how I sound lately, I have a really low voice. I’d make a great backing singer, bass tenor or something similar. I just can’t find my own singing voice for my own songs, or my own style.

I had found it, but once I’ve returned to it I just hate hearing myself. I want to post my own music online and just have an outlet like that but I can’t motivate myself to it. I’m in such a negative place and my voice just feels awful, shaky, and I’m only an average guitarist at very best.

It’s really frustrating, I wish I cared less. I’d be lying if I said that though. I just want a beautiful girl that sings and plays guitar that could bounce off me and sound perfect. There are so many songs that I want to play with someone special like that, I’m a dreamer eh.

I’m happy I met you – Sharing my song lyrics

This is a difficult one for me to share, I have mixed feelings because I wrote this song at a time when I’d just met someone and felt so loved. Sadly things didn’t turn out as I had originally hoped, I don’t have bitter feelings, more just disappointment. I guess it’s a relationship I just put down as an experience along my journey.

I’ve never been much of a poet,
But the words are there ‘cos of you,
I’ve never really known how to word it,
But here it goes just for you

All I can do is say sorry,
It’s probably just me that frets,
We don’t really have that story,
Of how across the room our eyes met

Regardless I’m so lucky,
Lucky that somehow you see,
I’m lucky that somehow you see,
Only the best of me

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodooo doodoo doo,
I’m happy i met you

I’d say that i’d catch a grenade for you but,
what kind of psycho bitch needs that?
Nothing you do will scare me off,
Pretty sure that you’ve tried that

Please just stay right next to me,
It’s crude but you’re my crack,
I just need you next to me,
Ain’t no looking back

What i’m saying is I’m so lucky,
Lucky that somehow you see,
I’m lucky that somehow you see,
Only the best of me

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodoo doodoo doo
I’m happy i met you

All i’m trying to say is i’m happy i met you
I’m happy i met you
doo, doo, doodoodoo doodoo doo
I’m happy i met you

I’m aware it’s pretty primitive, but it has a lot of meaning to me. It was the first song that I’ve written for somebody and it felt amazing to share it with her for the first time.

Who knows, eventually I might record some of my tracks and share them here. For now this is my first little step at sharing my music. You don’t get a complete feel for my songs through the lyrics alone, but for such a personal song..I guess you could say it’s a little insight into my life. In this case, a little insight into my past.